Step INTO your fear.

This is what I fear most.

This is what I fear most.

I’ve used lace before.  I’ve used beaded ribbons before.  I’ve used flowers, too.  Doesn’t mean that I no longer fear the silly things.

Inadequate.  Judged and found wanting.  Self recrimination.  Self abuse.

I suppose, like other things in life, you can develop a tolerance for horrid things after you do it/them multiple times.

The tag shown above took me over two hours to make.  I had the heat embossed swirl applied to the tag in about four minutes as I did the tutorial on heat embossing with stencils.  That was the easy part.

For me…facing my fears is akin to finding a spider coming from above on its invisible web.  No matter the size, minute or as big as a quarter, that spider will send me running and squealing.  Calling out for help to my “Spider Slayer” husband.  When he is not home to do this job then I am left to deal with the spider myself.  Most of the time it gets safely away to torment me another day.

A small pile of lace trim sitting on my work table can make my stomach twist, my heart beat faster, dread well up from the depths of my core.  My eyes flick back and forth from the lace trim to the blank tag.  My brain has shut down at this stage and all I feel is the fear.  I find that I have been holding my breath.  You’d think that I was in imminent danger of my very life.

While I’m creating cards or other abominations in my craft room, I start with a glimmer of an idea.  As I begin the process of gathering my supplies that glimmer turns into a spark, then into a fully fledged idea that I will work toward.  Not so when faced with lace trims.

I used my video camera to document my progress from paralyzing fear to actually completing the tag.  As I said, it took well over two hours to make this one tag.  I’ve edited the video down to about 18 minutes.

So anyone out there that is scared out of their minds, terrified to make the first move, and have clamoring voices in your head telling you to STOP…..Take a deep breath and STEP INTO YOUR FEAR.  You’ll never know how it will turn out.  Your first attempt may look like something that needs to be immediately thrown in the trash bin.  That is not the message.

The message is YOU DID IT AND  YOU SURVIVED IT!  You learned a little something along the way.  Your next attempt will be better.

Maybe you will have found a nugget of information to use on your next project, whatever that may be, as you watch my video.

Leslie

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Long hoarded paper shines in its new life out in the open.

Yes folks, I’m still working on my post titles.  Go ahead, you can groan out loud. 😀

I am going to give you permission to be stingy.  You and I both know that someone else will not love and appreciate the papers we have been in love with since the day they first came home.  We’ve been obsessed with the texture, beauty, sparkle, and graphics of the paper for so long.  We know in our heart of hearts that someone else would not appreciate the paper as we do.  Horror of horrors, they might even just toss that beautiful paper in the trash without even a thought.

THAT is the main reason all that precious paper remains hidden away.  In the dark.  Never to see daylight until we bring it back out to stroke and caress it.

Alright, now you know my deep dark secret.  I have a paper fetish….of sorts. 😀

I have decided to make something for myself.  Something that I really need in my craft room.  The box I currently have all my pens, pokey tools, scissors, craft knives, paint brushes, and a ton of other stuff – is so full I can’t put my tools away.

Now I can see that beautiful paper.  Out in the open.  In the daylight.  I can openly hold it and enjoy it.

My new hand tool organization

My new hand tool organization

I have a video showing you how to cover metal/tin cans with the paper you so cherish.  You love the paper and only YOU can give it the proper respect it deserves.  😀

I have a post from January of last year (2014) featuring metal/tin cans that I made for my daughter to keep her blow dryers, curling irons, and brushes in.  It is a two part post.  It made me feel so good when she showed me how she uses them when I went out to be with her after the birth of her twins.

Altered Tin Can – Part 1

Altered Tin Can – Part 2

Use the adhesive tools you are comfortable with…hot glue or double sided tape.  Get out your laces, flowers, and bling.  Do something very special for yourself using the papers you hold so dear.

Leslie

I should not go shopping unsupervised.

Case in point.

Unsupervised shopping spree

Unsupervised shopping spree

I have a project I am preparing for.  I have been asked to create approximately 40 Post-It-Note Holders to be given as Christmas gifts.  Joe already is aware that I, absolutely – positively – without a doubt, have to be off the road no later than November 8th to accomplish this task.

I have some idea of what will be required of me to create these personalized Holders.  Armed with that knowledge…..and without a list :-(……I went shopping for masculine themed items.  I do not have much in the way of masculine stamps, ephemera, and embellishments, so this trip was necessary.

Little did I know that I had brought along with me a child of 5 or 6 years of age.  An unseen child.  More to the point….My Inner Child.  I have been face to face with a pouting, tantrum throwing, crying, screaming, and grabbing everything on the shelf child.  I kid you not.

I’m positive you have been in a store, enjoying your shopping experience by looking, touching, feeling, and handling items that catch your fancy.  Somewhere, across the store, you are jolted by the sound of a child having a fit.  Your pleasant experience has now turned very unpleasant.

Well, imagine you are shopping and things just appear in your cart.  Things you had not planned on purchasing.  I had that experience recently.  The pouting and tantrums (although silent) began to happen as soon as I put an item back on the shelf.  Muttering to myself why it was not necessary to have that particular item(s) caused a few heads to turn my way.

I had already purchased Graphic 45 paper packs at Blue Moon Scrapbooking and was awaiting the arrival of the order.  Now I needed to find masculine rubber stamp images, neutral and dark ribbons, and some Distress Stains.  Going into Michaels with a clear idea of what I was going to purchase I had a spring in my step and I was focused.

Until that child appeared out of nowhere and began the grabbing business.  Glue backed crystals were put back on the shelf with a muttering about not good on a masculine item.  The whining began just as quickly.  “They can be used in a set of three at the top and bottom to add interest” I muttered back “Not when they are as large as an eraser!”.  I got a couple of odd looks.  Another aisle held jars of Prima like flowers in vibrant colors and were huge.  Two jars ended up in my cart.  “Why did I put those in?” I asked myself.  The response in my head…..”I like the jar”.  That was all it was.  The jar.  Only the jar.  Not the ginormous flowers inside the jar, just the jar.  The feeling that came over me when I put the JARS back on the shelf was a pout and a total shut down in my brain.  Any thought toward finding masculine images left.  I was stuck with a child that was rigid, unmoving, and closed with her arms folded across her chest and a pinched look on her face.

Wandering the store, trying desperately to get control of myself, I found myself in the aisle with Tim Holtz clear stamp sets.  I did get the items I wanted, and to mollify the brat inside me I also picked up a couple of sets that are most definitely NOT masculine.

My next stop was Hobby Lobby to find the Distress Stains.  Without giving myself a chance to let the child know I was doing more shopping I headed directly to the far corner of the store where the Tim Holtz items are displayed.  I should have known better.

I had to pass a clearance aisle on my way.  High up on the wall hung Letter Press papers and inks.  The grabbing started all over again.  This time with the whine “They are only $2”.  I put all the papers back except for one pack.  These are heavy papers and I reasoned with my brat that I could practice the water coloring and Distress Stain techniques with these papers.  Yikes, crisis averted.

I did get the Distress Stains, and a couple of Distress Inks.  Items I did need.  Where did the brat go?  Shut up Leslie, leave it alone while it is still good.

On a different trip Joe had dropped me off at Hobby Lobby so he could run some errands then come and pick me up.  I had some time to kill so I began wandering the aisles.  There has been a major shuffle due to the huge selection of Christmas items on their shelves and I had to see what had been placed where.

I found myself in the aisle that held all the wood items.  Unpainted wood shelves, boxes, flat pieces with beveled edges to be made into clocks or bases for upright items like a lamp.  Hanging on the shelves were clothes pins.  I had remembered a YouTube video of someone using the clothes pins to get control of their ribbon mass.  I did pick up some of the pins.

Large pins

Large pins

30 to a pack at less than $3….$2.99 and

Small pins

Small pins

50 to a pack at less than $3….$2.99  I did get these.  I have an empty flower vase at home.  On our Anniversary I had bought Joe a big bouquet of flowers to celebrate our 21 years of marriage.

Flower vase

Flower vase

I did leave the store with other items and with little fuss from my Inner Child.  She still did sneak in a few items but this time the experience was better than the first one.  I do believe I still need to be supervised when I go shopping in a craft store.  The only place that I have not controlled my impulses and come to terms with myself.

At  home, looking at the mess I now have and the quantity of items to create my project….and about 1,000 more on top of that….I am pleased with what I have.  I have also found that I have enough ribbon on hand (from other unsupervised trips) to embellish the masculine items I will be creating.

If you have ribbons that are a big tangled mess, such as this one….

Mess of ribbon

Mess of ribbon

Then give this a try.  Until you get a good handle on how to wind the ribbon on the clothes pin you will find this a bit trying.  The ribbon, or the pin, will slip from your grip and unravel itself.

Feed one end of the ribbon through the prongs, leaving a bit of tail to hold tight as you begin the spinning process.

Feed the tail through the prongs

Feed the tail through the prongs

Have some Glue Dots handy.  Even a bit of Scotch Tape will work.

Glue Dots

Glue Dots

Once you have the ribbon wound on the pin(s) and the end held fast with the Glue Dot you will have a neat little spool of ribbon.

Ribbon spooled on clothes pin

Ribbon spooled on clothes pin

Doesn’t it look so nice and neat now? 🙂

So pretty

So pretty

And it looks really good up on my shelf, too 🙂

Ribbons

Ribbons

Tell me about your shopping experience with YOUR “Inner Child”.  Do you have “help” when you go shopping?  When you get home do you have “Buyers Remorse”?  Have you conquered the fight with your Inner Child?  If so, please give me advise on what you have done to save your sanity and your wallet 🙂

Leslie